So as I wait for my movie to buffer, I might as well write another post.
A few days before Christmas, I was on my way to University to prepare for its all wide Christmas celebration, since I was (fortunately) assigned to be a shooter for the event, along with some mates from our organization. Well, as standard operating procedures go, assigned shooters should be early for briefing and distribution of media passes.
Before heading to the meeting place of assigned shooters, I got to meet up with one of my old friends at a nearby Starbucks. God seeing her was so gratifying – gratifying in the sense that I convinced myself that I wasn’t crazy to be making her up in my mind (she’s a real person!). I guess that’s what time does to you, it fools you. The thing is, this friend of mine used to be a classmate in university, she just had issues so she left. She just then checked up on us, and decided that she’d visit for the university’s annual wide Christmas celebration.
So, sitting at Starbucks with her, we got to catch up with one another and all related stuff. She even lent me a 50 mm AF Nikon Prime lens! I was so happy! Even at the idea of it just being lent to me really made my day! We then somewhat parted then met up again and celebrated pre-Christmas in our university. Soon enough, we had plans for Sunday, which was to go to Mass together. Unfortunately both of us weren’t able to go, maybe due to the tiresome activities we’ve been through. Another day passed and I woke up with a couple of messages on my phone. She asked if I could come by the nearest mall, but after a few exchanges of meet up places, I then said yes. I dashed right away just to see her, because it would be her last day around town, which was sad.
I headed to the mall and we just hang out. We played in the arcade, window-shopped and looked around the toy area (which looked unusual, well for me). While strolling around, she kept on reminding me that she only had until 3 pm that day because she had to prepare for her flight going back to the place she was staying at. That put me on so much pressure; I admit, I didn’t want her to go again. We ended the day by speed eating colored shaved ice, which was funny because we then had to board the train going home with our teeth with hues of blue.
The thing was, when I asked for a photo together, she declined. I asked her why. She replied to me, “We don’t need pictures, we have memories.” What she said struck me, since it proved to her point that I have been utterly dependent to technology (my DSLR camera) just to preserve my memories. I thought back to myself, oh yeah, didn’t I have a brain to recall my own memories? That moment changed my perspective on photos – shoot, but preserve some images in your memories. You never know, those photos might be reformatted or what. I then gave up on the idea that we should have a photo together. But still, I hope she’d understand because its been a real while since I last saw her and got to be with her.
So we got on the train, going home, since she was catching up on her flight schedule. It was past 3pm and the train was obviously the fastest way back. Unfortunately for me, we had to part in that train car. That train would arrive first on my stop, then hers. I would be parting with her. The idea was just sad. Still, we managed to say our final words before heading down, and I look forward to seeing her again. Hopefully this 2014, as she said.
I went out of the train, stepped right into the platform, let the doors close and the train swiftly left. The feeling in me was just so sad. I’m glad that I got to spend time with my friend, but the idea of leaving someone is sad. What hurt me more is that I had to go down while she had one more stop to go.
The idea of that s somehow amusing to think that that also applies to what happened to us in university. Since she left, she missed out on the lessons and the memories with our other friends. And when we were catching up she said she planned on coming back. Hearing her words felt wrong because we were meant to go through university together. We could have graduated the same time, if only she didn’t leave in the first place.
She just had to go through I have been through when she was gone. Too bad. We might as well move forward. I hope she catches up real quick though.